Just a Shit Load of Quotes.

'Sup Guys,

Don't expect my normal blog, infact, don't expect a blog with any structure whatsoever because this doesn't have any. It's just a load of quotes that have had a big effect on me.

'And if strength is born from heartbreak
Then mountains I could move
And if walls could speak I'd pray
That they would tell me what to do'

- Rise Against - Drones

Never doubt that a small group of thoughtful, committed citizens can change the world. Indeed, it is the only thing that ever has.

- Margaret Mead

Those who make peaceful revolution impossible will make violent revolution inevitable.

- John F. Kennedy

So I tell myself, I tell myself it's wrong.
There's a point we pass from which we can't return.
I felt the cold rain of the coming storm.

- Rise Against - The Good Left Undone

Mama always told me that life was like a box of chocolates; you never know what you gonna' get.

- Forrest Gump (Tom Hanks) - Forrest Gump

Sometimes I wonder if I've changed so much, my wife is even gonna recognize me whenever it is I get back to her, and how I'll ever be able to, tell about days like today. Ahh, Ryan. I don't know anything about Ryan, I don't care. The man means nothing to me; he's just a name. But if, you know, if going to Rem"al, and finding him so he can go home, if that earns me the right to get back to my wife, well then, then that's my mission.

- Capt. Miller (Tom Hanks) - Saving Private Ryan

When I go home people'll ask me, "Hey Hoot, why do you do it man? What, you some kinda war junkie?" You know what I'll say? I won't say a goddamn word. Why? They won't understand. They won't understand why we do it. They won't understand that it's about the men next to you, and that's it. That's all it is.

'Hoot' - Black Hawk Down

Relationships don't work they way they do on television and in the movies. Will they? Won't they? And then they finally do, and they're happy forever. Gimme a break. Nine out of ten of them end because they weren't right for each other to begin with, and half of the ones who get married get divorced anyway, and I'm telling you right now, through all this stuff I have not become a cynic. I haven't. Yes, I do happen to believe that love is mainly about pushing chocolate covered candies and, y'know, in some cultures, a chicken. You can call me a sucker, I don't care, because I do believe in it. Bottom line: it's couples who are truly right for each other wade through the same crap as everybody else, but the big difference is they don't let it take them down. One of those two people will stand up and fight for that relationship every time. If it's right, and they're real lucky, one of them will say something.

-

Dr. Cox - Scrubs

The death of one man is a tragedy, the death of millions is a statistic.

- Joseph Stalin

A hero of war
Is that what they see
Just medals and scars
So damn proud of me
And I brought home that flag
Now it gathers dust
But it's a flag that I love
It's the only flag I trust

-Hero Of War - Rise Against

Every action has a reaction. We've got one world and one chance.

-Tim McIlrath

I hope you can relate to some of them too :)

Monopoly: Life Edition.

Hey Guys,

I hope you're all doing okay.

I've given up with the whole one blog a month thing; If I'm inspired I'll write, it's as simple as that.

In this blog I'm going to talk about something every single person reading this blog has encountered. I guarantee it. Like, I would put every single penny I have on it.

Life.

Life is like a board game. Let me explain...

Everyone starts off the same. Equal. You're all on the first tile. The only difference right now is the colour of your counter. Then all in one turn, you've made your first steps into the big wide world. You've rolled the dice...

There are the lucky ones, the ones that roll 6's - the ones that are, from the word go playing a promising game and show, even from early stages signs of making it to the top. Then there are the middle two. The ones that don't really get any recognition. You're either first, last or forgotten. Then there are the ones behind everyone else. The ones that land on the 'Go back 3 spaces' block when they only rolled a two on their first go. Then you get onto the second row of blocks...

This second row represents education. There is the high flyer still in front, and soaring through the second row with a private education, 100% attendance record and a brand new car to celebrate. Then there's the person in second who also gets the private education but slacks and earns them self a place among the rebels of the school: Miss a turn! Next is the person in third who spends their academic years in an average school with little under 1000 pupils, however, unlike 2nd place, 3rd makes the most of their education and over takes 2nd whilst it misses a turn! Still in last there is fourth. This is the person that goes to a poor school and although they want to badly, doesn't get the chance to learn like the others. 4th place seems to be unlucky and consistently throwing low numbers!

The next and last set of blocks is the blocks for the big wide world. 1st seems to be doing well with a high paying job and a nice modern flat just outside London. What used to be 3rd, but is now 2nd due to high effort during education is doing well for himself too, and is almost catching up with 1st, also having a well paid job and a nice place to hang their hat. The new 3rd place is still 'living it up', even in their late twenties. They're living off of benefits and even spending that on alcohol and drugs to drown away their sorrows and regrets. Last place seems to be out of the game, but then after rolling another 1, something remarkable happens. 4th place lands on the 'You followed your dream' block and gets taken straight to the end. 4th wins the game!

However...

The last block, the winning block seems to be different to every player. To 1st and 2nd the block says 'Well Done, you have a steady income and are doing superbly in your job!', for 3rd it says 'You lived fast and you had fun doing the things you wanted to do!', but 4th saw the final block and it said 'Well done, you started a family.'

What I'm trying to say is, life is what you make of it.

Success is subjective.

Thank you so much for reading guys
I hope you enjoyed it
Loves!
C
x

We'll Just Learn To Forget About This...

Hey Guys,

I know that it's been like a week since I last blogged, but this isn't one of my usual blogs...

I'm not going to talk about war, or poverty, or politics; this ones going to be about my experiences at the moment. I can understand if you don't want to read this because you're expecting my normal blog, but I've been holding some stuff in, and I just feel I need to let it out for me to really be happy and at my best.

I'm going to write some paragraphs or observations about people I know, close or not close, but I won't tell you who they are, I think if they read this they'll probably guess anyway. I'm not too bothered about random people reading this, just a select few I really want to see this really.

1 - Damnn I miss you. It's strange because the thing I admire most about you, is the thing that hurts so much. You just get on with it as if nothings happened. Not a day has passed where I haven't thought 'I wonder if she ever thinks about me'. Even though I've said everything I think I can, I still feel like there's so much left unsaid. I never wanted things to end the way they did, but what's done is done, I just hope that some day near or far, we can try to start again.

2 - I don't think I can tell you how much you mean to me. You're such an amazing person and I honestly feel like you're one of the only people that is on call for me 24/7, because you know I would do the same. We talk about literally everything, and although we don't speak as much as we used to, I know that we wont fall apart. I've never had a argument with you, and I'm sure it will stay that way. I'm pretty sure you're always right, and when I don't take your advice I feel like an idiot admitting I was wrong. One last thing; 'they' aren't worth it.

3 - My god you've changed. I really don't know who you are any more. In my head you still mean so much to me, but I think that's because I try to hold on to the way things used to be. You tell me I can't accept you for who you are, but the truth is that I can't accept you for who you've become. Not that it really bothers you, but this is where we go our separate ways ol' chap. I've known for months it was only a matter of time before this whole chapter came to an end.

4 - I really don't like you. You're a self centred patronising bitch. That is all.

5 - You're amazing. Some of the best memories I've had are with you and I think I make you laugh more than anyone else. You're your own person and able to think things through so well. I can be a complete idiot with you, as well as having great heart to hearts with you. You're one of the only people who truly understands me. I know I ramble on sometimes, but that's because I know you really listen to what I say, you wont judge me and you love me for who I am. I couldn't ask for a better friend.

That's all guys, sorry if that didn't entertain you. I will be back with my usual thing in August :) <3

Loves!
C

If I was to have just one more day, I'd make sure that I spent it without you.

'Sup guys!

How're you all doing?

I very loosely try to do a blog a month, so sorry this one is a bit early but who's to stop inspiration?

This is a post for everyone really.

We've all been in this situation, I guarantee it.

I'm going to apologise in advance, this'll be the first of my blogs with some swearing in it.

The part of the brain that recognises embarrassment is called the pregenual anterior cingulate cortex. Yeah. I switched off after the P in pregenual too. Anyway. I'm going to get straight to what I'm trying to say.

Do whatever the fuck it is that you want to do.

Don't ever let people tell you that what you want to do is wrong or that you can't do it. Want to wear a foam banana suit for halloween? Do it. It feels great. I would know.

Society has brainwashed so many people that they subconsciously think what's 'right and wrong'. Correction. Apart from with proven factual things, right and wrong is a subjective and is different to every person.

You're never going to please everyone so just please yourself.

Seriously guys, don't ever think that you can't do what you want to do. Every person that says you can't achieve what you really want to do should spur you on; there's nothing better than seeing their faces when you prove them wrong.

I wrote something on my hand the other day, which I only realised after I wrote in permanent ink, but it's slowly coming off now. This is what I live by now...

'I will live fast and die young, but I hope the change I make will live forever.'

Break hearts, Break Bones, Break Promises, do whatever the hell it is you want as long as when you leave this world you don't have any regrets.

Destiny is chosen, not given.

Loves!

I walk along these no name streets; Wave goodbye to home.

Hey guys!

It's little under a month since I last blogged, so I'm back with another!

It's not another political one, but it's still another blog with a big meaning - Enjoy! x

How many of you have had a falling dream?

Everyone? Thought So.

I don't know if you believe in the whole thing about your dreams have a meaning malarkey, I'm not completely sold myself, but they say a falling dream means that you're over-whelmed of the things that are happening around you and that involve you, and that you have nothing to hold on to. Quite a big, scary meaning for a vision that enters your sub-conscious mind.

I had a falling dream a few days ago. I was climbing up the side of a building with a rope, I got meters from the top then the rope snapped, I fell and fell and fell, until seconds before hitting the hard ground and inevitably reaching my hypothetical demise, I managed to throw the rope back up, hook it and stop myself from dying. Completely un-plausible I know, but I think we've all had dreams which make less sense than that. I'm not one to believe all this supernatural gypsy stuff, but I don't know, this one was kinda different. Knowing that a falling dream meant you had nothing to hold onto, made me wonder that surely because I managed to hold on at the end, I have something to hold on to?

For the first couple of days after the dream, I thought it was a load of crap. I wasn't overwhelmed, I was fine.

But as ever, it takes someone, or something to point out your flaws and mistakes before you can really notice them.

What I'm trying to say is, taking the shopping out of the car and inside the house is the perfect metaphor for life. If you take too many bags, it's too heavy and you have to put some down, or try and run to the front door while juggling the precious bottles and fragile products inside the bag, which is more than likely to end in either you getting hurt, or the things in the bag getting ruined; worse case scenario the bag splits and you lose all of it. If you don't take enough, you leave things for other people to take for you and aren't much of a help. Life's about finding the perfect balance. If you find you're carrying too much, put one of the bags down and come back for it.

Everyone needs a break.

I'm currently going through one of those stages of looking at what I really want, and what I don't. Kind of assessing what I want to carry on, and what I don't.

I know people who suffer from depression and have run away and so on from stress, please, It can get better, it will get better, just take a break!

I know this may not seem as serious as my other blogs, but it really has a big meaning to me :) <3

Loves!
Connor
x

6 and a Half Billion Shoulders...

Hey There Bloggers!

I hope you're all enjoying the sunshine, or for my readers across the border I hope the weather is doing good there too!

It wouldn't surprise me if you've figured out what I mean by the title of this blog, but if not here it is.

Quite often people talk about 'carrying the weight of the world on their shoulders', well surely, just like any other thing, no matter how light or heavy, it's less weight on your shoulders the more people that carry the object?

Everyone has an opinion; you don't have to be a genius to know that. However, many people have said things like 'I agree with what you're saying, that this world is in tatters and something needs to be done; but the government will never listen, I just try and ignore it'.

I don't think people understand the power of expression any more.

Don't you find it annoying when someone is annoyed at you, but you don't know what for? Don't you hate it when you've really pee'd someone off but you didn't even know about it?

You, right now, reading this blog; you have a voice, use it!

Don't keep your idea's and views inside - there's bound to be somewhere that feels the same way as you do!

I'm going to once again refer to one of the true icons of the Twentieth Century: Martin Luther King. Discrimination of blacks had been taking place for years. Segregation of extreme measures was imminent in the United States. Imagine that every single day, you're told you're not worth what everyone else is worth. You're not human like the other people are. You don't have rights like the other people do; wouldn't you say something? I think I can answer for you. Many people I know, would like to say they would say something, but the truth is they wouldn't. Martin Luther King one day snapped, he'd had enough, he stood up for what he believed in. I'm sure when arguing with a white man about a bus seat all those years ago, the thought of being a icon world wide and leading a revolution wasn't one running through his head. 'First a spark, then a flame, then a fire'. His appeal to reason quickly grew a following - what started out as one mans fight became perhaps the biggest revolution of the century.

One man changed the world, why can't you?

I know that sounds ambitious, but isn't it ambition which makes great things great? Do you really think Thomas Edison went about inventing the light bulb expecting it to be easy? Do you really think the Americans attempted flying to the moon thinking it would be easy?

Nothing that's worth having comes easy.

For those of you that are still reading and haven't clicked off because you think I'm an absolute nut case, Make sure you carry on reading. Even if you aren't completely sold to the idea of revolution, there is an inconvenient truth to come.

I know many people don't like to think ahead, but just consider this for a second...

One Day, our generation will be in control. You, your neighbour, your class mates, your school mates; all these people at some point will decide the steps this world will take. These people won't just write history, they will be a part of it. Who's to say the next leader of our nation isn't sitting next to you in English? Who's to say that the person who invents the a efficient way of using renewable isn't the guy sitting in front of you in science? At the end of the day, weather you like it or not, the worlds weight will be cast our generations shoulders.

So now I refer once again to the title; Would you rather carry the weight of the world on your own, or get Six and a half Billion people help carry it with you?

Loves!

Connor
x

My New Thing :)

Hey Guys :)

I thought I'd try a new thing, where people Inbox me a problem they have, or something that's upsetting them or on their mind, and I'll include a few of the problems in this blog. I'll offer my views on things and try and help in anyway I can, so here goes!

1.
'I kinda feel like my boyfriend doesn't care about me, he flirts with other girls, doesn't phone me, doesn't text me, nothing, but when I'm with him he's lovely, and when I phone him he talks to me, and he tells me he loves me, I've tried talking to him about it but he just gets angry with me, how do I make him understand that I don't feel like he cares about me and I'm not just being obsessive?'

I'm going to be honest and say I kinda' know how you feel. It's important that you know straight away that you aren't being obsessive. A relationship is a two way thing, and If he's not putting the same effort in as you are then he should expect to be confronted with some questions. It is quite usual to not feel as close to someone when you're not with them, if you know what I mean, but this seems to be quite peculiar. Perhaps there is quite a lot going on with him right now that he's often quite busy most of the time hence the reason why he doesn't phone you or text you, but the time he does get to spend with you does mean a lot to him and that's why things are so amazing, or maybe you just aren't on the same page in this relationship.

My Advice: No matter how much you think you're annoying him, talk to him about it. The key to a working relationship is communication as I'm sure you know. If he says he's fine and there is nothing going on, ask him if this relationship means as much to him as it does to you. It's important to know that a relationship is at the same level of commitment for both people.

2.
'My Nan Which upsets me the most, she has Alzheimer's Disease, and she's slowly forgetting everything, gets confused easily and also very stressed. It's really difficult and extremely upsetting :/'

Disease and Health in family members is never easy. The important thing you should know is that with things like this, you're not alone. Everyone goes through it in their lifetime, so you can almost chat to anyone about it, including me. I know that no matter how much someone tells you 'It's part of getting old' or whatever makes a difference, just because it's normal doesn't make it any less painful. The best thing you can do is try and act yourself around them even if it is killing you inside. The worst thing you can do with things like disease, as I'm sure you know, is treat them like they are different. Just try and enjoy her company as much as possible and don't let it get on top of you. She's still your Nan and always will be, she still means as much to you now as she ever did, let her know that.

My Advice: Try and stay positive. Just speak to her and enjoy her company like you did before she got the disease and things will be much easier.

3.
'So basicals, I think I like someone. They say they like me back but I doubt that it'll happen because of some circumstances. What should I do?'

Crushes always suck, fact. In these sort of 'Pre-relationship' circumstances it's important keep up to date on whether the other person is still 'interested'. As a teenager hormones take control and it's not unusual for feelings toward someone to change on a daily basis. As for these 'circumstances', if you like each other enough then I'm sure that these 'Circumstances' are somewhat insignificant. If you get on amazingly and you are always talking and have a lot in common and you could really see a relationship between you getting somewhere, then go for it. As with most relationships, the likely hood is that it's not for forever, but there is someone for everyone. Take a risk. That's what livings for, isn't it? Do whatever makes you happy.

My Advice: Go for it. If you both like each other and you're a strong couple, then I'm sure there are no 'Circumstances' you can't overcome. Every road in life has it's obstacles, you're the only person that can choose the road you take.

4.
'Whenever I need someone to tell me I'm not an absolute fail, they always let me down. Friends are so shit sometimes, you have the really good ones that you don't get to see that often, then the ones that you spend everyday with are complete let downs. Always chatting about their problems and managing to bounce whenever it's time to hear mine; you just wonder why the fuck you bother.'

Oh haven't we all been there? It's important you realise that pretty much everyone goes through this at some point. Self-esteem is a bitch, isn't it? We've all gone through a state of self doubt, well let me tell you right now, you're not a 'Absolute Fail'. No one is. No matter how much you may feel like giving up, or that you're useless, you're not. Everyone has a purpose. I know you on a personal level and I cannot begin to tell you how much of a legend you are. Sometimes you can't see what it is, but you do have a worth. The 'friends' that don't help you with your problems and give you their full attention when you need someone to talk to aren't friends. 'Nuff Said. Forget about the ones you see every day at school, if they are annoying you and you don't get along just don't talk to them, get your head down and study hard. That's what I did for half a year, not only did I realise who my true friends are, but I got a feeling of 'I'm not a fail, I'm doing really well!' when I saw that all the work I'd been doing in class without disruption of others had made my grades improve massively. The true friends you may rarely see are always worth the wait. Keep that smile on your face, because it makes me happy :)

My Advice: Put the friends that aren't real friends aside, put your work first for a bit and then you will also see who can't live without you and who are your real friends.

I hope I helped guys :) I just told you what I thought :D

Love you!

Until next time
Farewell, or, as everyone in shops in Wales says 'Ta taa now!'

:')

Cheers!

Connor x

Why not open your eyes? It might help you open your mind...

Hey Guys :)

I'm aware I haven't blogged in a while, but this one should be quite a good one...

This isn't going to be one of my normal blogs where I talk about my life happenings, this is going to be a blog with one big meaning.

I'm going to start with a question, and end with the same one...

When you're done, when you're dying, wouldn't you like to know you've made a difference?

This is something that has really hit home for me in the last week or so. It all started on the 25th of January 2011...

Rise Against released their first single from their brand new album, Endgame. The song is called Help Is On The Way, and it's about Hurricane Katrina/BP deep water oil spill. Straight away I knew Rise Against had gone a step further. A band that have always persisted in writing lyrics that seem to penetrate all feelings of 'Everythings Perfect', had just written a song that, little did I know, would change my life forever.

The next string was pulled on February 15th 2011...

Rise Against release their second single from their brand new album, Endgame. This new track is called Architects, and like Help Is On The Way, it hits home hard. I've never heard a song that gets so to the point. Architects is about this world being broken, and how Our generation needs to fix it. With lines such as...

'Do you care to be the layer of the bricks that seal your fate
or would you rather be the architect
of what we might create?'

These lines at the end of the chorus basically say, You can follow or you can change things. Tim McIlrath uses the word Architect as a way of describing someone such as Martin Luther King who has Designed the world we live in. Tim basically implies that there are none of these 'Architects' left in the world, no people to go against the grain to fight for a better way.

Later on the song breaks down to hear Tim McIlrath chanting the words:

'Don't you remember when you were young, and you wanted to set the world on fire?'

Which says that when you are young you want to change the world, you want things to be the way you think are right, but as you get older you tend to just accept the world for what it is and get on with it.

Now the fuse is lit on March 15th...

March 15th, Rise Against release their Endgame album. I skip the first two songs as they are the two singles that I have avidly listened to since their release. Then I hear the song which completely changes me forever. Make It Stop (Septembers Children). This song sings the stories of 5 homo-sexuals who killed themselves after being victims of discrimination in September 2010. The entire album had a huge impact on me, all with a very deep, real meaning, but this had the biggest effect.

Lets skip forward to Wednesday the 30th of March...

Tonight I am sitting on a cold wooden floor, with my loved Alexisonfire hoodie on and my iPod on with my headphones in my ears. The same noise is blaring out of my headphones into my ears as it has for the past 15 days. Tonight I decide I've had enough. Tonight I decide what my lifetime goal will be. Tonight, I decide that everything I will ever do from now on, I will do to make a difference. Although it's ambitious, and when you read this you'll probably click off straight away, my Mission, is to change the world.

I seem to be one of the only people I know that can open their eyes. I want to make everyone else open theirs too. I want you to open your eyes and minds to the possibility that what they are taught is wrong. What they're told is wrong. The fact there are two sides to every story. I am going to use probably a very controversial example now...

I'm pretty sure everyone of you who read this will consider our troops heroes. I'm almost certain all of you who read this will think that everyone our nation has ever opposed are the 'bad guys', well are they? To every other nation we have ever engaged in conflict in, I'm certain that the civilians have seen the people that fight for their country as heroes and our troops as the bad guys. Us and other nations aren't all that different. Everyone we have ever shot and killed has been fighting for what they believe in. People our troops have shot and killed have had Children and Families. People our troops have shot and killed have been people with their whole life ahead of them to go on and do something great. People our troops have shot and killed have had everything we have, so why are they worth less? How come shooting a man who your government has told you to shoot, that you have never met in your entire life, who you've never said a word to, who you have no motive toward killing, who has a family that will cry when they go home in a coffin with their nations flag on it makes you a hero, but if you shoot someone you do know, that you have said a word to, that has done something so horrific toward you you want to kill them, who also has a family just like the 'bad guy' makes you a criminal?

What's the difference? They're both murderers.

I think it's time that people started hearing it how it is, and that's what my band will start doing from now on. Telling it how it is.

I hope I haven't offended anyone, this is just how I feel.

So I'll ask again, when you're done, when you're dying, don't you want to know you've made a difference?

Cheers! x

This worlds an ugly place, but you're so beautiful to me.

Hey guys :D

Everyone looking to find my usual semi-funny, blog, this isn't the case. This blog is all about one person, Courteney Elkins.

Where do I begin?

You're the most important person in the entire world to me, I know I tell you all the time and it doesn't mean that much anymore, but I tell you everyday because the though of you ever forgetting that you're everything to me is unbearable. You make me happy like no one else can, You make me laugh like no one else can, you make me smile like no one else can, you make me feel loved like no one else can. There isn't a second that passes when you aren't on my mind. I miss you so much. It's strange, knowing that I'm going to see you in just a few days isn't enough because there's already a hole in my heart from the small time we've spent apart. You're the one, and I've never been so certain of something in my entire life. I can try to think about my life without you, but it's useless because I'd be lost without you, I wouldn't be half the person I am.

You Complete Me.

The simplest way to say all of this is, Courteney Elkins, I am absolutely, unconditionally, indescribably, head-over-heels in love with you.

Prepare for the best and the fastest ride!

Haiii guyyshhh!

Howsh it goweeen?

Okay I'll stop being an idiot now :')

Seriously though guys, how are you all doing? You all know me, I'm a friendly guy, chat to me on facebook or whatever, tell me how you're doing and tell me what you're looking forward to doing this summer!

Anyway, it's been just over a month since I did my last blog, So I'll give you an update of whats Happened:

- My bands first gig was absolutely amazing, by far the best thing I've ever done

- Me and Courteney are getting stronger every single day

- My band are in the recording studio this week to record their first EP!

- Although it's still technically winter, everyday feels like summer

This is what this blog is mainly about, Summer. I know what you're thinking 'Dude, it's February, I'm still freezing!', but those of you that see me regularly might have noticed that I never wear my sleeves down. Now, this Probably sounds really stupid, but it's because I don't feel the cold, every step I take with the chilling winter breeze hitting my bare pale forearms is spent with a smile on my face and a happy song in my head. Everyones got a happy song, everyone has a song that when they hear it their heart skips a beat, and they get the butterflies in their tummy. Wether it's about a guy, a girl, a place, a time, I don't know, even if it's about something crazy like you're dog, this song reminds you of the one thing that makes you happier than anything else in the entire world. My favourite thing in the entire world, is summer. The heat of the shining sun on the dark navy water of mill pond near my house, with my two best mates by my side and the girl I love under my arm, just the thought of that is enough to get me by. I have the mates, I have the girl, all I needs the sun.

Message Of The Month:

Keep what you're looking forward to in your mind, and keep your head held high.

Until next time

Baii! x

A whole 18 days of action... Not that action, dirty betch.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Shhh, it's not that late... what do you mean it's almost February?!

Hey Guys :)

I'm hoping to start blogging more often, my last blog 'My Blog?' was all depressing and shizz, and I have a feeling that this years gonna' be a good year so it shouldn't make you want to slit so much :) Anyway, at the end of every blog I'm going to try and put a moral to all my stories :)

So a quick summary of the whole 18 days of action i've had so far.

- Band back together and better than ever

- Me and Courteney back together and this time forever

- My Grandad sadly passed away on the 11th of January

- My band ( now 'False Priority' ;) ) have their first gig on the 13th of February

I'm honestly so happy, I have so much to look forward to, my Future with my band and my future with Courteney :)

First, my band. You guys, I love both of you lads so much, we've all been through times together, and the memories we have no one could ever compare, I die laughing whenever I think of the time I threw a roll at Joe's face and he caught it and ate it LOL. When people ask me what I want to do as a job when I'm older, I always tell them I'm going to be touring the world with my two best buds, doing what we love and what we do best, have a fucking amazing time playing music, not for anything but ourselves. I love you guys, Give it a 2 maybe 3 years, WEMBLEYY :D

Secondly, Courteney. I love you. I'm crazy about you. I think the reason this feels so right, is because you see through all my huge imperfections, you don't care that i'm an absolute whore, you don't care that I go way too far when joking... All the time. I've never known love like yours that, even though I'm a completely faulted arsehole, the way you hold my hand, the way you hug me, the way you tell me you love me makes me think that at least to someone I am a good person. The hardest part of my day is letting go of your hand when I go to get in my car, because I know I won't see you for like agesss, and I never want to be apart from you. I love you so much.

The Moral part...

The only thing that I'm scared about is, before when I've felt like I had everything, I've lost it all. My message for the day is...

Only take just enough, because too much will leave you with nothing.

Until next time, Aufweidersehn! x

Loves x